Lifelong Holiday

Is this the year that I forget my birthday?
Is this the year I can’t recall my face?
A day will come when all I’ve got of me is just a passing thought
A scar that’s faded if not quite erased

I peer into my eyes like they are windows
A portal to my circulating thoughts
A carousel within my mind, that sping until I’m redefined
Not by what I am but by what I’m not

I long for a lifelong holiday, where I wind up a world away
On a vacation from myself
I long for a lifelong holiday, the type of trip so far away
That I return as someone else

Talking with myself is karaoke
Tired words I didn’t even write
The time has come I finally stopped and let the mic be firmly dropped
And go my separate ways into the night

I’ll be a tiny dot fading in the distance
The terminus of a desert road
The thirst and heat will leave me numb until I’m not sure where I’m from
And forward is the only way to go